My Mom

Hi friends,
i wanted to give you an update on my mom.

She is nearing the end stages of liver failure. Due to the chemo , it wore her liver out.
the doctors said for us to monitor her condition. If fluids start to build up, or she has bleeding from her mouth, or her brain function diminishes, then, it will be the beginning of the end for her.

I am praying she will have the longest pain free existence as possible. As long as she can still recognize us, and enjoy her granddaughter as long as possible, is my prayer.

I had a chance to speak with her privately and ask, what she wants me to do, how she wants me to proceed. She told me to live my life, and do my best. Dont try and force your father to do things in a modern way.

We have to discuss more with her. Its not easy knowing the days ahead are less than the days behind, but i just have to live without regret. To live without saying i wish i could have done this or that. honestly, i didnt spend as much time with my mom as i would have liked. I think i didnt want to because of how my dad makes me feel. I cant punish my mom because of my dad though.

Dignity and respect. Thats what my mom deserves. For doing her best to honor my dad through it all. And as much confidence in the fact that I love her.

Sam