Remembering: Il-Kap Chon

Hi, saturday september the 8th at 3:30 pm, we were informed by my grandmothers assisting living facility that she had passed away peacefully.

It was a shock to me because i just saw her on friday afternoon. I went there with my wife and daughter. I really dislike assisted living places. Honestly yesterday was the first time i visited her since she was admitted last month. I was kind of relieved that at least i was able to see her before she passed.

She looked fine on friday. She seemed happy to see us especially my wife. After we sold our first house in cherry hill, we moved in with my granda for about 12 months. So we got closer with her during that time. Even though we were both working a lot of hours, we had dinners together and spent good time together.

She still seemed pretty sharp.

I think she was 93 years old.

But i was thinking about how she felt. we had to move her to an assisted living home because she could not go to the bathroom on her own. My older relatives were adamant against putting her into a home until this stage. assisted living places, the state subsidized ones are usually creepy. It feels like they are just doing the minimum, and its a pit stop for nurses and technicians who will eventually gain enough experience to move onto a better health system or facility.

When i get old, i wonder how things will be for me. If i lost my wife already and i was alone. Would eleanor and her husband come to visit me all the time? I was kind of glad to have a daughter first because i dont know if a son will take care or me like a daughter would. That kind of an admission on my own part. My sister took way better care of my mom when she was touch and go. I try my best, but its hard.

Anyhow , if i have other children, i think i will lay out a plan for how i want things to be carried out. But if i dont feel wanted, or if everyone is just waiting for me to pass, i'd rather do a couple more adrenaline rush type things and go out with a bang. It seems odd but i am only 32 and I am thinking about funerals and how i want to go out. I might even record a little video for all my funeral guests. When i am coherent and vibrant, i would like to have a few parting words.

My dad said to me, if I get to the dimensia stage, then he'd rather pass early too. I told him, we will make sure that doesnt happen.

My grandmother was a great person. She never hated anyone and she wasnt bitter. she became a widow so young but she decided not to remarry. (i think thats why she lived such a long life) Her kids my aunt uncle and dad are all successful business people. I think my dad feels like he owes a lot to her. My aunt, honestly did most of the hard stuff. She visited grandma a lot more. My other uncle who is older than my dad also did a lot. Funny thing is grandma would look out the window and say that he is coming over soon. she always seemed to be waiting for him. She sacrificed a lot of personal things to make sure her kids got every chance to have a better life.

when grandma was more active she used to have a garden in the back and cook us good food.

I remember when i first got taller than her. that wasnt a big feat since she was tiny, but still it was for me! She used to tell me she still remembers when they brought me home from Cooper hospital. I was so small, and now i have outgrown her and I have a small baby of my own.

Thankfully all the funeral preparations went well. no one was squabbling about the money and realizing during this time no one should be remembered at the jerk. Grandma deserves a memorial for all she has done.

I am thankful that she received her salvation and put her trust in the Lord Jesus Christ. When my time comes, we will see her again, and in a more glorious state how we can rememeber her.

Sam